me @ 2005, December 6 - 11:08pm
I had my first date about a year ago with a foreign armenian girl. After about four or five dates, I found us at a theme park and I went to hold her hand. She said that we were just friends, good friends. We stopped communication after the new year.
My second date was with a girl I met around the same time, around Valentine’s day of this year. Still friends to this date (he turned out to be extremely similar to me and we working together on some projects) , we dispute as to whether she said she had an actual boyfriend at the time or not. Particularly, mentioned she had a boyfriend near the end of the date.
Over the summer, I engaged in an online flirtation with a girl I truly cared for. Suffice to say she did not reciprocate. I then got into what I consider my first true dating experience with a girl from on of my fall classes. After an awesome week, probably the best in my life, she dumped me using the “I’m not ready to move on” excuse. She then proceeded to push me completely out of her life.
From there I’ve had a handful of other relationships, usually ending in the same “not ready to move on” thing or just a failure to maintain communication on their part. Now I’m a tad in stasis as I now begin to write out these things that are so important to me, to try to make sense of it all, and to prepare for the future.